Monday, 28 April 2014

Dahlia is a big 3 year old now


After few subsequence months of business travelling, I never felt so home-sick leaving my daughter for far too often now especially at her critical age phase.. My baby Dahlia has just turned 3 early of the month but I could feel that Im getting further away everyday from her because of my work!!She is incredibly growing and MasyaAllah, her brain is 'glowing'! Witnessing the miracles of Allah s.w.t depan mata memang makes me cry each time... MasyaAllah..

Darling Dahlia,

 Im not holding any super degree in anything
 but with you we are captivating...

You are our princess indeed 
Although mami and papa are not the king and queen

Neither we are perfect chefs 
but you still adore your meals and eat ....

I could still remember the 'sup ketam' conversation we had. 
Mami : Sedap kan sup ketam ni Dahlia
Dahlia : Hmm..(nodding your head)..Jangan cakap tak sedap tau..
Mami : Eh..x sedap ke? 
Dahlia : (almost motionless you shook your head)

Your fine motor skills are amazing,
 inherited from papa not mami 

Perhaps, your wittiness and cheekiness,
those are from me....

When ever papa is off (like 2 times in a month), 
you are the most happy..

Chocolates or candy, 
you know well that you have to brush your teeth..

We dont have much money to get you a pink horsy,
 but InsyaAllah  mami and papa will enroll you the riding lessons at D.A.R.C..

You enjoyed your first movie with Cloudy,
 which papa missed that 'first' movie

Thank you for helping me with the vege,
there you go, your reward spaghetti 

I know you'll go wild entering our walk-in pantry,
that gives me more reason to let you try was nyummy..

You learn so much words and stuff from the TV, im not denying, 
It was from there you admire the art of archery..

You have so much of 'akal' menyakat papa and mami,
that is part of growing and you know what darling,
 you are already fully diaper free at the age of three!!!

but above all of who you are, we are so happy ,
that at your little age, you already know who is our priority,


...yes Allah...thats our Creator sayang, yang beri kita nyawa dan mati...

Papa: kaki dahlia cantikla
Dahlia : (sambil belek kakinya) cantik colour pink,papa nak macam ni ke?
Papa: nak nak
Dahlia : nanti papa solat nanti Allah bagi k...

Alahai sayang :')

Mami and papa

Sunday, 27 April 2014

Quran Recitation by Mishari Rasyed Al-Afasy


Ive been meaning to get / purchase a compilation quran CD by Mishari Rasyed Al-Afasy but it was so hard to find one with a whole quran compiled... We did found a set in Mekkah about RM200 but we did not have enough cash then and unfortunately the shop did not accept credit card...feeeling contended but determined,eventually, I found the best link to download 'em all ..alhamdulillah... syukur sangat kerana Allah mudahkan perjalanan hambaNya... :')

You may download the whole juzuk too from here

Attaching here the beautiful Quran recitation  by Mishari Rasyed Al-Afasy...(*perhaps its the network issue in my office that there are no sounds from each player, just try them out eh. The downloaded version works well alhamdulillah)

Semoga amalan kita diterima oleh Allah s.w.t..ameen..

Saturday, 5 April 2014

Umrah, Saudi Arabia - Feb 2014


Assalamualaikum dear readers...

I have so much to share with you but seems like my commencement of speech is stunted by this endless syukur feelings..lama termenung mengenangkan the memories kami suami isteri di sana... MasyaAllah...

*30 mins has gone by*

As soon as our plane touched down safely at the Prince Mohammad bin Abdulaziz Airport, the regional airport in Medina, terasa sebak and terharu yang sangat-sangat melihat kota yang was once lived by our beloved Prophet Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.... certainly, we the muslims are in truth VERY fortunate being given the brain and soul of understanding and surrendering to Islam, in another term I would call it 'hidayah'. We have been chosen by Allah s.w.t to walk towards HIM and live in this test world as muslim...Im emotionally moved because some of us have been summoned to be HIS guests to HIS Masjidil Haram...Alhamdulillah...For those who are yet to get the chance, do not weep on it,with Allah's permission, you will get there allow my humble journal here be an inspirational account.insyaAllah..

Although it was a 12 day visit in total, we were pretty much engaged in ibadah round the clock..i mean literally..One might wonder how is that possible, how is that possible not to think about something else other than ibadah..well, believe me, when you are there..the only thing you will be thinking is your solat and your families well being..and you will never feel enough seeking forgiveness.. *sedih*

Our direct flight with Saudi Airlines from KUL-JED was a pleasant one ..but my heart is still with Malaysia Airlines (MAS)  lah.. simply quintessential ...I need not to say more...anyhow..syukur Alhamdulillah dengan Airlines Saudi juga, kami selamat jejakkan kaki ke tanah suci dan selamat kembali ke tanah Malaysia.

Agenda :
Day 1 - Day 5 : Our stay in Madinah Al Munawarah
Day 5 - Day 12 : Our stay in Makkah Al Mukkaramah

Summary and some learning points : (dont miss the point on souvenir)

By foremost,

1. Be sincere and niat hendak umrah semata-mata kerana Allah s.w.t. InsyaAllah your journey will be at ease when you took the first step..its a sad thing that I see quite a handful felt a twinge of jealousy for the people who have performed umrah. Hence, with so much haste, they too want to go there just because somebody else has gone there...

2. Do not get distressed and do not distress others. Umrah is not a ibadah wajib for every muslims. Sekiranya mampu (bukan sahaja dalam bentuk kewangan, tetapi dalam bentuk kesihatan,emosi dan mental), then by all means ,please proceed =)

3.Engaged a well known trusted umrah agents. Dont be conned by the cheaper fares / packages promotions. Rule of thumb, the more you invest with pure hearts, the more you will get in return.

4. Restrain yourself from plucking the negativity of the surrounding into your minds. Even on jokes, mischievous is indeed syaitan's way of drifting human kind. Ucaplah "Astaghfirullahalazim" and "Alhamdulillah" at all time. It works =)

5. Sabar. Alhamdulillah Allah helped me much on this one. Like A LOT. My husband would be the best to judge kot. Somebody told me that they experienced massive test after test after test on their sabar throughout their stay there,but Alhamdulillah hati I tenang on most of the time there..although I couldn't prevent from being 'geram' (with our brother and sister's attitude),but I was able to alleviate it. Alhamdulillah syukur tidak terhingga. Cepat je cool down walau kena siku terlanggar terpijak disana... :')

6. Jangan lah bertanya hal kewangan orang lain. I dont know why but everytime we bumped into any Malaysian jemaah, the must ask questions mesti (a) "Dengan agent mana?" (b) "Berapa ringgit package awak ni?". ..I rasa Malaysian need to be more sensitive when it comes to personal matter.

7. And hormat menghormati lah sesama manusia...baik kepada yang lebih muda dari kita, mahu pun yang lebih tua dari kita.

Pressing the red button :
"Muslim zaman sekarang ni agama ada tetapi akhlak tiada...terbalik dengan kafir yang akhlak ada tetapi agama tiada..that is why when a non-muslim embraces Islam, he/she is better than the born-as-Islam believers". 

hmm...someone told me that and I agree with her totally...Macam mana kita boleh instill a sense of rightness in today's believers eh? ~sigh *sedih*

8. Make friends. Alhamdulillah both husband and I memang mudah untuk bercampur gaul with others regardless of age or who ever...create good links with your mutawiff and all the ustaz and ustazah in your group.

9. Bring along pain relief gel/cream. I suffered a sever backpain after my 1st or 2nd umrah. It deteriorated on the following days. Nasib baik ada bawa few Salonpas patches ( Pain Relief Patches) and Counterpain cream. Sampai nangis ok sakit pinggang. Tetapi I kept telling myself kalau la I termasuk neraka, the suffering will be elongate. Nauzubillah minta Allah jauhkan kita semua dari api nerakaNya. Ameen...

10. Bring along medicated hand/body lotion. You would be needing that alot since there is a lot of construction being going on (endlessly). Apply them before you even got to Madinah and Mekah.

11. Be alert at all times - point 1. Even though Madinah and  Mekah is a sacred places,but syaitan is everywhere too. Care for your belongings. Pernah terjadi , beg sandang di toreh tanpa sedar. So be careful.

12. Be alert at all times. - point 2. Listen carefully and comprehend the points given by your muttawif. I saw many elderly especially took this for granted. They did not pay attention much to the dos-and-donts and where-to-meet stuff like that. Ended up them getting lost and left out alone and some of them were even penalized (dam) kerana melanggar syarat-syarat umrah...
Example of being alert - point 2 :
  • Listen to your muttawif when he/she told you its time to read your niat umrah at the miqat point. 
  • Listen to your muttawif when he/she told you to recognize the landmarks. This is so important.Buildings there are all look-a-like.
  • Listen to your muttawif when he/she told you that the bus is leaving at what-what hour.

13. Niat lah kerana hendak melakukan umrah, bukan kerana hendak shopping sakan. Betulkan niat. Kalau ya pun,shopping lah berpada-pada. Jangan sehingga dipalingkan rukun umrah, kerana kejarkan jubah madinah.

14. Bring just enough cash of Riyal walau pun they do accept MYR. Merchandises are rather cheaper comparing with the pricing here in Malaysia. For an example, the same exact design cotton jubah was at RM50 in Makkah comparing the one sold in SACC, Shah Alam, RM80.

*Tips : The lesser you bring your cash, the less tendency of you doing the shopping ;) . If Im not mistaken, we only had about SAR600 (MY550++)  for the whole 12 day stay there..

15. Makan was never a concern. Alhamdulillah. Our package included the 3 meals a day..and we all ate like the arabians!!! ;)

16. A must buy from Madinah : Kurma nabi.

17. A must get in Makkah : Zam Zam Water & Umrah yang mabrur...

18.Perform as much solat sunat as possible: Among that I knew of and did was :  Solat Sunat Wudhu, Solat Tahiyatul Masjid,Solat Sunat Rawatib, Solat Sunat Dhuha, Solat Sunat Tahajud, Solat Sunat Taubat, Solat Sunat Hajat, Solat Sunat.

19. Do not miss Solat Janazah, be it in Masjid Nabawi or in the Masjidil Haram. There is ALWAYS a solat jenazah after each fardu prayer. DO NOT MISS THIS. We dont have much chances to perform this in Malaysia. The reward/pahala of each solat jenazah is narrated as huge/weighted as heavy as the Mount Uhud. MasyaAllah..

20. Empty your hearts with the nonsense.Write off those bad memories, what ever skirmishes you have had with anybody, what ever heartache you have endured...Diminish them all, and insyaAllah you will feel the sweetness in your umrah,in your solat, in your daily routine and in your every breathe...

21.To encapsulate my feelings sepanjang I berada disana , I would say "you will shed tears in expression of gratitude" ...literaly...because, I yang tidak faham the arabic language pun boleh menangis di dalam solat tatkala mendengar imam menangis mengalunkan surah-surah suci Al-Quran...he must have felt the words from Allah much deeper..imam Masjidil Haram menangis..MasyaAllah..alangkah indahnya kata-kata Allah s.w.t... :'( *sedih*

22. While you are  there, dont rush out from the mosque...sit down and look into yourself (muhasabah), kenanglah dosa lalu,shed it out.. betapa ruginya kita,but itu pun kita kena bersyukur kerana Allah tunjukkan pada kita yang mana perkara baik, yang mana perkara tidak baik...and berdoa lah...berdoa lah supaya Allah tidak putus-putus menolong kita memperbaiki diri kita...berdoalah agar Allah menjemput kita lagi dan lagi dan lagi ke rumahnya...ameen...

23. Last but not least, I would suggest you to read to the life of our beloved Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. before departing for umrah/haji.. Believe me, akan terasa lebih sebak when you are there and you know he once did this, did that and all...betapa besar pengorbanannya ... :'( *sedih lagi* .

24. We have been granted the chance to up lift ourselves, by performing umrah, and practice the sunnah of nabi muhammad s.a.w, try to sustain the positive change even you are back here in Malaysia.

25. It was narrated that Allah s.w.t akan mengampukan dosa-dosa antara 2 umrah..Isn't it beautiful?See how much Allah s.w.t beri peluang pada kita to repent... :') Berdoalah supaya Allah s.w.t selalu menjemput kita ke Madinah dan MekahNya... Nikmat Allah yang mana do you still want to deny?

24. Souvenir not from makkah nor medinah :

I have this MP3 copies of Mufti Ismail Menk which I bought from Nur Ala Nur Academy (NANA), that I would like to give out to you readers (muslim or non-muslim) without any text or watsapp me at 0123059444 and insyaAllah I will get it couriered to you.

My husband and I never get tired listening to the stories of the supreme leader of ours, Nabi Muhammad S.A.W....and we would be more than happy to share this wonderful talk with, text me ya! I would love to hear from you..and do spread the words :)

Note : Anyway, our preparation of Umrah experiences were written in this post.

Umrah : Days in Madinah Al Munawarah


It was almost midnight by the time we reached the hotel and alhamdulillah we settled down by 0130 hrs or so..Manakan tidak, we were 7 buses in total but the segregation were done excellently...200 in total we were ( under the Tabung Haji Travels)!! Terharu lagi hati ini..bersyukur ramai yang dapat menjadi tetamu Allah s.w.t. Itu tidak dikira lagi dari lain-lain agensi .masyaAllah..

Early that Saturday morning , for the first time , anxiously, I stepped on the red carpet in awe.The exterior architecture of the mosque is as much exquisite as the interior designs. Beautiful tall pillars positioned in a very systematic manner with the zam zam water dispensers along the pathways. Rows of shelves filled with quran and alot of wakaf stools neatly organized by the separator walls...Sungguh indah ilmu yang Allah s.w.t berikan kepada manusia...As you can see from the first photo , there weren't many people was 2 AM in the morning then..I made my first solat and was in tears....

Makam Nabi Muhammad s.a.w:
There are a few must-visit areas when we are at the beautiful masjid nabawi..first and foremost, is the makam Nabi Muhammad s.a.w and his two companions.Unfortunately,we the females are restricted to get close. There must be a reason why the females are not allowed to get near by the makam, what ever the reasons are, we ought to respect that law.

*Dikhuatiri emosi para jemaah wanita tidak dapat dikawal especially those from non Asian countries...

But even being 100 meter away and berjengket-jengket jugak la I outside of the mosque tu to take a peek at the makam enough to make me weep and it hit me directly in my heart bahawa ..there he is!!!!.my leader!!!my leader who taught me many things!!!who showed me how to live my life the right way!!!..Sayangnya I pada Nabi Muhammad s.a.w !!!...He (pbuh) grew up without a mother and a father's love.He lost his wives and children at the peak of the islamic course..He received immense rejections from his (pbuh) own people and from many others..he (pbuh) fought hard in many battles, he(pbuh) suffered a great degree of physical not to mention emotional pain to convey the message to us ...betapa sedihnya he (pbuh) must have been melihat kita sehinggakan banyak firman Allah s.w.t telling him not to be sad..Allahuakbar......nevertheless, with his hardship and the strength of iman, the message sampai to me till today..sampai kepada kita semua..

Makam Nabi Muhammad s.a.w and his two companions ( Saidina Abu Bakar As Siddiq r.a & Saidnia Umar bin Al-Khattab r.a) are beneath the green dome. Could you see the extended pathway? From that entrance, you could see the gold gate (makam).

"Without a standing army,without a bodyguard,without a palace,without a fixed revenue,if ever any man had the right to say that he ruled by a right Divine, it was Muhammad s.a.w;" - [Mohammed and Mohammedanism,London,1874,page 235]

Tips: I saw this from Ustaz Don's show. Each time we pay a visit to makam Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, it is best for us to recite this ayat from Surah An-Nisa , verse 64

Followed by giving salam to him(pbuh) and make supplication similarly like how Nabi Yusuf's brothers had uttered to their father,
Surah Yusuf ,verse 97

'Talk' to him as if he is there in front of polite..and humbly and with respect,make conversation with him..the angels will lift your words to him by the will of Allah s.w.t .insyaAllah...Well, as for me, I could not stop thanking him for all of that he had done for the course of Allah s.w.t..All the stories about him were wandering in my mind...his sufferings, his sadness, penat letih beliau..his mukjizat yang Allah s.w.t berikan to open the eyes of the people masih tidak cukup to some...aduhai.. :'( ..It felt so close as if he was there in front of me watching me crying was grief mingled with words were all jumbling up and down.....but deep inside, I knew Allah s.w.t knows best of every single thoughts and questions in my heart..Subhanallah..

Anybody yang pernah ke sini, none were without thanking Allah s.w.t  and mengenangkan perasaan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, kerana through him (pbuh) we are who we are muslims..and even so, we still felt it was not enough..we were all in tears on our last day there..ziarah wada'. Sebak and sayu ..we never met him, but the love towards him is so strong ...itu lah nikmat yang Allah s.w.t pinjamkan pada kita...syukur alhamdulillah...

The gardens of heaven (Raudah):
Another restriction area for the women. However, unlike the makam Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, the raudah area are permissible for the female at 3 different slots hour. Each slot were given about 2-3 hours if Im not mistaken..and yes, ramai sangat orang!Tetapi janji Allah itu benar bukan? At least sekali mesti you are able to solat on the green carpet :) And pasti ada ganjaran yang hebat juga bukan atas kesabaran yang kita endure ini?

"Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman.” (Ali-Imran:139)

The waiting area in stages. We were facilitated by serious looking guards in black abaya which is good. They are the one controlling the crowd and give permission who will go into the raudah next and all.. .I admire tahap kesabaran these ladies, having to control jemaah from various countries. Ada yang mahu dengar kata, ramai yang enggan..hanya Allah yang membalas kesabaran mereka..ameen..

This is just a quarter of the crowd in the area!!!But having a muttawif yang sudah "kam-ching" with the garang guards, on a limited space on the green carpet, on the front row lagi, Allah s.w.t gave me the chance to make quite a number of solat-solat sunat....Alhamdulillah..And of course, kita the asian ini tidak tamak, we give way to others too as soon as we finish with the solat..we usually will move to another spot (with less people) to supplicate...biarlah sekiranya mereka-meraka enggan berkongsi kawasan raudah atau hanya mementingkan diri dengan mencederakan jemaah yang lain....Allah knows best bukan? :)

Green carpet - raudah .The picture is blur due to husband kena halau with the guards agaknya..disuruhnya beredar secepat mungkin....fair enough...we had our turns, now its time to return...

The white plastic separators (are only there for the female raudah sessions) will be pulled out to open up the male praying area.

The interior...Aint it jaw dropping? :') . Yes, I was allowed to take photos in the mosque..remember when I told you I was with a lady muttawif yang sudah 'kam-ching' with the garang guards.. =)

Not one time I was here that nobody was cleaning something..ada sahaja yang sedang membersihkan..terima kasih pada meraka...the mosque is so clean you hardly see/feel any dust...even the carpets..

A savoury biscuit yang sedap!!!Giving sedekah is the most easiest ibadah. Terasa segan pula when they kept offering their between-solat-snacks while I tidak ada apa untuk dimakan...hmm..offer tissue papers pun jadi lah  ... ;p

Perkuburan Al-Baqi:
Again,the ladies are restricted to get a closer visit to the cemetery. Dont get too emotional and engrossed with all the gain nothing if not less... All these restrictions to these important places may sounds as a bombshell, but ladies, look into the bright side of it..Allah knows your intentions and you shall receive an equitable balance of reward...insyaAllah..

Hendak seribu daya bukan? As long as we do not violate any rules, there is always other way... You may walk to the outskirt of the mosque to get the view. Took us about 15 - 20 mins walk to get to edge (me in the photo - outside of the mosque compound - by the busy road side) from the nearest gate and Im so thankful to my husband  to walk with  me there. He could have just gone in by himself into the al-baqi if he wants :')

As all of you may have known, the cemetery here places more than 10,000 muslims including para sahabahs Nabi Muhammad s.a.w..By just looking at it , a sudden gloomy feelings arouse in me...As I supplicate the doa (appropriate supplication are given in the Tabung Haji  red note book) , tears shed down *again*.

Among the famous ones, Saad bin Muaz yang hanya hidup as a muslim for 6 years if Im not mistaken..but his death menggegarkan Arasy Allah s.w.t and it was narrated , semasa his jenazah was brought to the cemetery, ramai malaikat berebut-rebut untuk mengusung...masyaAllah... :')

Another person that I think highly of and would love to be as strong as, is Ummu Salama....She was among the first to entered into the fold of Islam and among the first too intended to make the hijrah to Medinah...and Allah's great test upon her is enough to me realize that we, the woman in  this era are living a charmed life...Her prominent story taught us all a big lesson of being sabar and always have faith in Allah all began when she wanted to follow his husband for hijrah but was held back by her own family (non-believer). Reluctantly her husband proceeded, leaving her and their child, Salamah. That was not the end of it, her son was then been taken away from her in-laws and this resulted her cryng for almost 12 months or more ...Do we even dare to imagine how would that be like? Being separated 3 ways at the acute phase of Islam...

Im not sure if her grave is somewhere here or not, none the matter, I believe each one of these muslimin here had had their own grieve and my hair stands each time I imagine the strength of iman in them...

Alhamdulillah, Allah s.w.t gave me the chance to feel/visualize how fortunate these sahabahs were..mereka yang berkesempatan to have lived together with Nabi Muhammad have learned so much from him have fought in battles with have performed solahs led by Nabi Muhammad s.a.w...and how great the iman of these people were..Im so no where near that rank.. *nangis*

Mount Uhud 

A mount renowned among the muslimin...a big lesson that we must all learn from - obedience. Nabi Muhammad s.a.w made it clear for the archers to stay put on the other mount (as observers) no matter on what situation. But they were determined to join their troops to collect the booty from the battle not realizing there were a whole bunch of enemy surrounding and the muslimin were encapsulated like a small seed in a berry.

Allahuakbar...the steadfast leader appointed on that mountain and few other muslimin left on the mountain were martyred..Although the muslimin did not conquer the battle on that day, neither did the enemy, but it was on this day that the 'Lion of Allah s.w.t' , Saidina Hamzah ibn Abdul Mutalib r.a fought bravely and was martyred by a slave man named Wahshi. Although Wahshi gained his freedom from his master by this command, but he was truly repentant for his obliged actions.

There...some part of the rocky Mount Uhud ...a lesson how disobedient displeasure The Owner of small debate can lead to a destruction..

There were many battles during that time, and many of the companions were martyred and left the family members alone, no body to take care of them and no body to protect them from the harm of the non-muslims..During the dark days, women and children were the least taken care of (well maybe until up to today),therefore it was only for this reason , the spouses of the martyred companions were married by the living companions including Nabi Muhammad s.a.w himself. The marriages was done not because of lust and desire but purely to PROTECT the muslim women and children...

I hope this answers your questions on why did our Nabi Muhammad s.a.w had had many wives. Mind you, out of many, he only married 1 women who were still a virgin, the rest was a widow. Think deeply. Speaking of which, one of our mutawwif so happen to be the famous ustaz in Perak, and in one of our usrah session, he mentioned that he is afraid to have more than 1 wife (poligamy)because women these days are so independent. You might ask why bukan?

Simple explanation by him : "Isteri - isteri sekarang sudah ada pendapatan sendiri, jadi barang dapur semua dia belikan..kalau la saya tak sempat minta halal makan minum dari isteri (isteri-isteri) saya, saya berdosa besar..bukan senang berpoligami,kalau orang tahu bagaimana berlaku adil yang sebenar-benarnya, rasanya ramai lelaki takut untuk berpoligami" 

Masjid Quba

Little of entertainment

Berbekalkan on Riyal500 of cash, we did not spend much during our visit in Madinah but made some little are some pictures before we proceed to our days in Makkah..somebody made it to the Hajar Aswad ...lets hear her experience :')

Should have bought more Kurma Ajwa (kurma nabi)..2 kilo for the 3 orang anak beranak seperti tidak cukup pula..sedap sungguh jenis kurma yang ditanam oleh nabi muhammad s.a.w ini...masyaAllah..seriously!!! Check out the story behind'll be amazed :')

Saudara Isa yang selalu sahaja mencium pipi suamiku....ramah penduduk Madinah ini...terbayang kisah hijrah Nabi Muhammad s.a.w and the rest of the companions...while others rejects and intended to persecute them all, penduduk Madinah lah yang welcome them with open arms .... *terharu*

I belajar dari tempat ini la on how to make hotel style omelette..gebu sedap cheesy ..nyummy....

On over all, our stay in Madinah was wonderful complimented by a very comfy hotel , so near , so blessed...Alhamdulillah...

Umrah : Days in Makkah Al Mukarramah


Truly I am astounded looking at the grand Masjidil Haram.Not only it is already huge, it is still expanding to accommodate the growing number of pilgrims.MasyaAllah... :') A whole lot of pilgrims putting their heads on the ground for Allah s.w.t, The only Creator of all creations.. It really is THE mosque you would want to be in after Masjid Al-Madinah...

Alhamdulillah, both husband and I completed our first umrah and syukur to Allah s.w.t to have made ease on us from the beginning till the end of our umrah wada' ..walaupun badan mengandung penat, indeed Allah s.w.t helps who ever He wants, and who ever calls for Him.. :')

Well, nothing much to account for our days in Mecca besides the ibadah mainly Tawaf and Saie..I hope with my little experience sharing, you are able to gain meaningful umrah in your heart, insyaAllah.. :')


This is how the kaabah area usually looks like in the wee hour from the upper deck..Although with that crowd, the view was such a tranquility dont you agree?..a great feelings and the high determination to put your hands on the kaabah robe..what more to touch  the hajar aswad, the rock from heaven..

Personally I dont mind the crowd down there.Making tawaf on the upper deck was more challenging if I would to say my opinion. The upper deck is meant for the elderly and those aided with wheel chairs. You might not get nudged, but you worry more of getting hit by the wheel chairs.Sakit ok. I kena few times.

Dah nama pun manusia. Gelojoh .Perhaps this is how it will be like during the day of judgement where none others matters anymore... Wallahualam..

But with our way of up bringing agaknya, we the Asians are less aggressive and we are most likely the ones who are giving way to others. Alhamdulillah. To my rational mind, not hurting others would make a worthwhile ibadah bukan? I believe that Allah knows best and His rewards are just.

We were advised not to get over excited and to sustain our niat during tawaf, else that round of tawaf will be nullified. On an average, for each umrah, we completed all 7 rounds of tawaf in about 20-30 minutes..One might ask, did I manage to touch the kaabah? The answer is yes, alhamdulillah. Although I have to admit, it is nothing but a structured blocks covered with rough-suede-like robe. But keep this in mind, it is not the kaabah that we are worshiping. It is nothing other than just as a symbolic of unity.

So what is so great of touching it? I dont know about others, but my intention was solely to touch the most protected structure on earth and to touch where our prophets (pbut) used to touched , to walk where our prophets (pbut) used to walk, and to visualize the surroundings of those times..throughout the tawaf, I kept telling myself, maybe just maybe this was where our Nabi Muhammad s.a.w had sit down and rest, maybe just maybe this was the spot he (pbuh) and companion Abu Bakar As-Siddiq was resting when the lady wanted to persecute him (pbuh) but Allah had protected him by covering the lady's sight from seeing Nabi Muhammad s.a.w walaupun she was standing very near to him (pbuh)... Allahuakbar :') Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Pelindung...And yes, pegang the kaabah pun I boleh menangis *sedih*

Did I manage to kiss the stone from heaven? Alhamdulillah :')

A mixed feelings it was. Upon completing the umrah ,we then consulted with one of our ustaz and how relieved we were when the verdict was 'no dam penalized'...Alhamdulillah...I was so sure I touched the kaabah after completing the 7th round. Thats the main check point.

Making tawaf was not so hard seperti yang kita dengar..."make sure bahu kiri mengadap kaabah tau walau apa pun jadi,kalau tak batal tawaf"....well allow me to say, Allah s.w.t Maha Mengetahui bukan? With that crowd , MESTI your left shoulder akan tersasar sedikit dari facing the long as it was unintentionally, you may proceed completing your tawaf..

Just to share with you, we Malaysian, are prostrating mengadap the hajar aswad specifically :') one of the most mujarab spot untuk berdoa...


A long distance walk but an easy one. About 15 mins walk from Safa to Marwah. Again, if you read the purpose of us making the Saie, you will burst into tears...whilst walking back and forth, selalunya I akan bergenang air mata mengenangkan kisah Hajar yang berlari between these 2 points for a drop of water for her baby  ..I dont know about you, but setelah bergelar ibu ini, I semakin terasa pengorbanan seorang ibu terhadap anak-anak, I semakin terasa dalamnya perasaan sayang kepada makhluk Allah s.w.t yang diberi pinjam pada I....Ya Allah...bayangkan sahaja kita tinggalkan anak pada suatu sudut and left him/her there alone...hungry and crying..hati ibu mana yang tidak luluh dengar tangisan anak kecil... *sedih*

The first yellow box (bottom right) is Safa and the other yellow box is Marwah

"Sesungguhnya Safa dan Marwah adalah sebahagian daripada syiar lambang agama Allah, maka sesiapa yang menunaikan ibadat haji ke Baitullah atau mengerjakan umrah maka tidaklah salah ia bersa'ie (berjalan dengan berulang-alik ) di antara keduanya dan sesiapa bersukarela mengerjakan perkara-perkara kebajikan maka sesungguhnya Allah Maha Pemberi Balasan lagi Maha Mengetahui"

The picture above and down here are us heading back to Marwah.

I teringat I was watching a chinese family with one little girl about 2 years old were making Saie as well. At some point the little girl was cranky and did not want her father to carry her. From her mother's gestures, I knew she was exausted..ini kan pula henadak mendukung budak..but you know what..hati ibu kan...penat sakit pinggang pun she carried her child all the way until the end of the point..*sedih* terbayang kisah yang Allah s.w.t hendak mengajar kita tentang teguhnya sabar and iman seorang ibu bernama Hajar sebagai teladan kita....Allahuakbar :')Sememangnya Allah s.w.t created women ni with a special strength..

It was during this time that Hajar saw the zam zam water was gushing our miraculously. I could not imagine more how happy she was then.. :')

Selain mendoakan apa yang dihajati, berdoalah juga untuk kesenangan di masa hadapan :

"Ya Allah, Ya rahim, hilangkan lah dahagaku sewaktu di padang mahsyar nanti ya Allah. Sesungguhnya nikmat rezeki adalah segalanya dengan keizinanMu"

Our 'gang' in Mekkah sebabnya semua satu kepala and we live nearby back here in Kuala Lumpur. We had so much memories there. Some occasions yang I cant forget and I believe if we were to gather once again sometimes in the future, we would still laugh our hearts out.

Scene 1 : Was about us taking the cab for our first miqat. Im not able to describe it in detail but Im sure kalau this 'gang' read these points suffice dah to recall on the event.

Taxi - no aircond - fare was not confirmed - traffic jam - driver asked to drop us up or down - finally had to walk to masjid - due to road block.

Scene 2 : I texted husband on how happy I was touching the hajar aswad - guilt because was still in ihram - worried about money since cash was very limited - confirmed with ustaz no dam - helmi told he got conned to Pak Indon to kiss the hajar aswad the next day- was very hard to put his head INSIDE the hajar aswad - I was confused when he told me getting his head INSIDE the hajar aswad because I did not encounter any place to enter my head - I was puzzled lagi...diam sejenak and everybody was asking why....After describing the "stone" yang I pegang cium, turns out NOT the hajar aswad rupa2ya..!!! It was the rukun yamani that I kissed!!! kalau la kena bayar Dam, bayar Dam sebab kiss batu yang salah pulak!


The view inside the mosque

Usually after performing tawaf and saie, most pilgrims will stayback at the mosque to save a spot for the solat fardhu. As you can see from the picture below, massive people came as early as 3 hours prior the adzan.MasyaAllah...memang seronok and memang tenang hati because while you are there you tidak langsung memikirkan hal dunia...NOT ONCE!! Bahagia sungguh walau penat badan..

The kaabah area will be closed for the female to make room for the male jemaah. Alhamdulillah, my husband was given the chance to perform solat directly in front of the kaabah, one of it was for the friday prayer..Syukur Alhamdulillah..

Amazing picturesque kan? :') ..

Before departing to Mekkah, hati I tidak henti berdoa agar diberi peluang to see the kaabah and to make ease of every move...while true enough bila kita mendengar kisah-kisah some jemaah yang ditutup pandangan melihat kaabah. According to our ustaz,a miracle incident happened not to long ago related to this kabaah ( 2 - 3 years back).

It began when a little boy could not see the black kaabah structure. This young boy and his parent were there for the first time to perform tawaf but the boy kept asking his mother why they are walking in circle as matter how many times the parents tried to show him the kaabah, the boy could not see it. They then went to consult with the 3 imam of the Masjidil Haram and one of the imam instructed the father to pluck one grape from the supermarket and feed the child prior paying for the grapes.

After having the grape, the boy could now see the kaabah clearly. They learn that before this, the boy could only see white light coming from the earth like a laser pointing straight up to the sky...masyaAllah..Kebesaran Allah s.w.t kan :') The imam concluded that the young boy terlalu suci and was brought up in a very halal manner..dari pemakanan dan seluruhnya..MasyaAllah...such an inspiration :')

Memang tidak jemu mata memandang kaabah..bukan sahaja dengan the architecture attraction, tetapi mengenangkan kisah-kisah nabi-nabi , rasul-rasul Allah s.w.t yang banyak sejarahnya tertumpu pada kaabah yang agung ini..

*am actually crying while typing this*

Our prophets Muhammad s.a.w was here..he (pbuh) was there ..untungnya la kita menjadi umatnya...and my dear muslim readers, repent lah, bersyukur lah kerana Allah s.w.t kurniakan kita sebagai umat Nabi Muhammad s.a.w ....berdoalah pada Allah s.w.t yang SATU supaya diizinkan kita memasuki syurga Firdausnya..

Berdoalah supaya Allah s.w.t mengizinkan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w mengenal kita sebagai umatnya..berdoalah supaya Allah s.w.t mengizinkan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w memberi syafaat kepada kita dia akhirat kelak..berdoalah pada Allah s.w.t agar mengizinkan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w memberi seteguk air dari telaganya...kerana no doubt Allah s.w.t itu Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang..dan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w rindu akan kita..

Sahaba : Why are you crying, oh Messenger of Allah?
Prophet : I miss my brothers
Sahaba : Are we not your brothers, oh Messenger of Allah?
Prophet : No, you are my Companions. My brothers are those who will come after me and they believe in me without seeing me.

To wrap my post here, I would like to apologize should my writings have offended you in any way. With all due respect and with my sincere thoughts, these posts depicts my love towards Islam and am so grateful that you are willing to hear me out about how I feel about Islam, about my religion. My doa is for Allah s.w.t to soften our hearts and repent and surrender to His command as much possible as we can....Ameen....because we are all sinners.